Tag: God’s plan

Why are we so selfish?

Hi all !!

I’m actually not posing the question in the light you may be assuming….  so read on, and maybe you’ll end up as thoroughly confused as I am.  🤣 #sorrynotsorry

Why, when we KNOW that God’s plan is the absolute best for us, that His ways are best, that His grace is sufficient, do we still hurt/get mad/get sad when things don’t run the course we kinda want them to?

I’ll use a very real example…. DEATH !!  When my Dad went to be with the Lord at 5.55pm on April 15th, 2017,  I fell to the floor and wailed.. like FULL ON wailed !! Now, if you’ve followed my blog for awhile over on my ‘Lovely Shiloh’ blog site, you’ll know that I received a vision from the Lord of this moment… if you haven’t read it, you find it HERE.   I’ve asked myself so many times since… Why was I so upset?  This was literally the moment my Dad had craved his ENTIRE life….  he was going to meet Jesus for crying out loud…  why, if I love him as much I know I do…  why was I not fist pumping the air with the biggest smile on my face for what he was experiencing at that moment?

I fully realise that this is a question that has a very obvious answer, but still… when I don’t doubt a single word in God’s Word, when I know his promises are true, when I know Romans 8:18 to be true… WHY did I not see this for the moment it was… the greatest moment of my Dad’s life?

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Spoiler alert… I don’t actually have the answer to this, other than the obvious ones…  ‘The level of grief you experience reflects the level of love you have for that person.’ & ‘you crave the physical presence of that person in your life.’  These are both wonderful things as it speaks to the relationship you had with that person.  I don’t need to go into how much my Dad meant to me… it’s been covered in several other blogs…. but as a general explanation… He was my rock, my greatest supporter, my example, my friend.. and the best Dad a girl could ever ask for.

When it comes to the loss of a loved one, I think perhaps it’s enough to WANT to have that type of faith level, even while knowing that it’s perhaps not possible to be 110% selfless in this regard (& this regard only, to be clear).  It is certainly easier nearly 3yrs later to be ok with God’s plan for Dad… I mean heck, it was easier once the initial sting went… but there are still days, moments of days, when I so crave the presence of my Dad.  Oh the comfort felt knowing that I will see him again !!! 💜

You can also ask this question of yourself in other regards tho. Why am I so selfish that I want this one, or that thing.. when perhaps that isn’t what God wants for me?  Even if we’re very self disciplined and accept the opening & closing of doors in our lives as the Lord wills, it’s pretty much impossible to not feel emotions over each situation.

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I think it’s only a positive thing if we are striving to be 100% happy with WHATEVER God’s plans are for our lives.  I think it’s the growth we strive to achieve in how we react to things that defines the speed at which we mature in the faith.

I give the example of a close friendship of mine that very sadly came to an end a few years ago.  It’s only now, several years later, with a new friendship formed with that  person, that I can see God’s hand in that situation.  Why those things had to happen.   To be clear, how I always reacted during the hurt of that time did not need to happen, but that’s the biggest thing to come out of what was a terrible time.  I was not in a place, was not spiritually mature enough, to accept/see God’s will in the situation.  He was dragging me away kicking and screaming… and man was I kicking and screaming.

Through pain comes growth !  Such a true statement.  It’s part of my testimony now… and we all know.. we don’t up with a testimony without a test or two.  Sad, but true.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could just learn this stuff quicker than we do?  ha ha.  #wishfulthinking

I’m thankful for God’s Word that gives me such encouragement at all times, but mostly in those times when perhaps I’m not understanding God’s plan.

“When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?” Psalm 8:3-4
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
Proverbs 19:21
“But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, oh you of little faith!” Luke 12:28
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9
“For this God is our God for ever and ever: he will be our guide even unto death.” Psalm 48:14
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.” Isaiah 40:28
“The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom all those who practice it have a good understanding. His praise endures forever!” Psalm 111:10
Forever Thankful !!
Blessings Peeps
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In a great headspace !!

As I was walking Cooper this afternoon for his normal late afternoon walk, it occurred to me, that other than the sometimes yuckiness of life….  hormonal teenage outbursts, middle aged husband emotions (😂),  continuing to grieve my Dad, the still unreconciled extended family situation, plus normal ‘life’ stuggles…  my life is in a really fantastic place.  I know that this is all because of Jesus, our ultimate peacemaker.

 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

I‘m very blessed to have pretty much always had a very strong surety when it comes to my faith.  I don’t struggle with doubt, or unbelief in any areas…  and I KNOW, beyond a shadow of doubt, that this strength in my faith is what places me in this great place in life.  If I made the mistake of looking at things logically, maybe I’d struggle to not get depressed about it.  BUT, I know that God’s plans are the BEST plans, so even when something doesn’t happen, or not happen, when I think it should….  or something doesn’t come together that I wished had…. or God pushes me down a pathway I was hesitant (understatement) to go…  I have the confidence in knowing that God’s got this !!  

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What I was most thinking about when this came to me on my walk this afternoon was my health and fitness journey.  I know I covered this in the last blog, but I’m really finding the social media outlets not only a tool of accountability, but a great encouragement.

I had to buy 3 major pieces of equipment in order to dive into this ministry that God has for me….  when the 2nd arrived a couple of days ago, I said to my husband… “This is getting real, when the 3rd package arrives, I actually have to do this.”  Like I said in the last blog.. exciting, but scary !!  🖥📸💜🏃🏽‍♀️

Another thing that had me pondering where I’m at, is the people that we’re surrounded by.  It’s a no brainer that we do our best when championed on by loved ones and friends.

As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.  Proverbs 27:17

I’m very blessed to have really wonderful people around me, but like most people, I also have those around me that are kinda hoping I fail….  those that think this is just a faze.. and I’ll just go back to the unhealthy weight and food choices that were my life 3+years ago.  I also have people in my life who choose to see something about me that simply isn’t me.   All I can say about that is…hey… haters gonna hate.  Move on, but pray for them like crazy.. coz happy people want the best for others… unhappy, or damaged people… do not.  So, whatever way you look at it, those that maybe don’t champion you on in your life….  or worse, outright speak negatively about you..  need our prayers more than anyone else.  

 

Back to the possibility of back tracking in fitness… even if solely for physical comfort, I’d need to stay off dairy and big amounts of meat intake…..  which is a BIG part of having a healthy body…. so even if I were to let the physical exercise go, I’d still be far healthier than I was previously.  Having said that, I kinda LOVE my walks, my workouts, my clothes (😂), so I can’t see me going away from this healthy lifestyle.

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In order to keep it real, I’m not saying I never get down… coz man, I do !  I was in a real funk a couple of days ago for an evening and a day… and I just couldn’t explain it… It was near the anniversary of my Dad going Home to the Lord, but I really didn’t think it was that.. it was different….  and low and beyond.. the dreaded monthlies arrived today… so waa laa… explanation found !!  🤔

On this front, I actually received a letter with a surgery date for my much dreaded Hysterectomy, but as it was going to clash with my daughter’s 18th b’day & party, I had to let them know I couldn’t do that date… so back onto the waitlist I go.  Heartbroken?? NOT

As it’s Easter Saturday (is that actually an offical thing?? I don’t think so.. but anyway)… so in just 17mins… it’ll be the time my Dad went Home on Easter Saturday 2017.  Last year, it was rough, as easter fell BEFORE the date of the anniversary, but his year, it’s already passed, so it seems a lot easier.  However, I”m choosing to not dwell on it, so there’s that.

In regards to my blog pages, I’ll just let you all know that I will be consolidating my two pages.  I’m halfway through blogging my Europe trip with my sister last year, so I’ll finish that off before wrapping the page up… but after that, this will be my main blog page, so as to best facilitate this new health, wellness and fitness ministry.

My entire homeschooling journey, as well as Master 14s ADHD diagnosis & journey are over on Lovely Shiloh, as well as travel blogs, preparing for and then grieving the loss of my Dad.. and general life.  Feel free to go check them out, but there’s 248 blogs over there as we go live…..  so just a bit of reading for you.  Here is the link.  😀

I’m wondering if there’s a way to make a copy of all blogs…  without literally printing them all out.. if anyone knows of a way, please tell me, as I’d love to do that.

OK..    that’s it for now.

Blessings Peeps.  xox

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Something’s in the pipeline

Hi all.

It’s cooling down here in Brisbane, which is great !!  Getting out to walk/run, or even just doing a workout in general is just so much more enjoyable.  I kinda (like a LOT) hate being hot.   So, PRAISE GOD for Autumn !!

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As you all know, I’m on a journey of being more obedient to the Holy Spirit and allowing him to work through me with my passion for Health & fitness.  As I revealed in my previous blog, I’ve started a instagram, solely for my health & fitness posts.  Check it out here if you haven’t already.  I have been blown away by the response, and what an encouragement it has been to me.

(For those already following, I did have to rebrand ever so slightly, as the original was just too close to the Fab Fit Fun box company.  Whoopsie ! )

Back to the obedience journey…  some equipment has been purchased, leaps of faith have been made, and confidence found that I didn’t realise I had.   Not too sure when I’ll fully reveal this particular Holy Spirit prompting… but I’ll say it’s BIG.. and it’s something I NEVER thought I’d ever be doing.

I’m so reminded of Isaiah 54:2 Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.

It’s actually really fun (while also being scary) to 100% get onboard with God’s plans for you.  Like I said, I’m being taken down paths I never thought I’d trod….  and learning so much on the way.  Making new friends, learning new skills…  moving my tent pegs out further.  

Another passage that was highlighted for me these past few weeks… which I really think has basically became the mantra of my life 3 years ago, is I Corinthians 9:26-27 So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.  But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.  

Now, HELLO.. if that isn’t some accountability scripture right there, I don’d know what is.    Ever since I put my very first health and fitness related blog up 3years ago (read it here), I was very aware that I was making myself more accountable in that area.   I knew that while any info I shared was all to do with me, my journey, my experiences etc etc, there were other people that would quite possibly take the suggestions on, or make similar changes in their lives.

The responsibility of this did not go un-noticed by me.  I wouldn’t call it a weight, but it is a constant ‘presence’.. something for me to constantly bear in mind.

1 Thessalonians 5:11 is a constant reminder for me of what I ultimately need to be doing in my health & fitness outreach.  Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.  and Proverbs 27:17  also reminds me that I’M actually being helped greatly throughout this journey, as I connect with others who are likeminded Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.

I’d really love your prayers as I walk further down this new path.  It’s exciting, but it’s also nerve racking..  so yes, any prayers would be appreciated.

Blessings Peeps !!

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